Serenading Heartbreak by Fields Ella

Author:Fields, Ella
Language: eng
Format: epub, azw3
Tags: novel
Publisher: Ella Fields
Published: 2019-09-23T16:00:00+00:00

Christmas morning was quiet compared to what years of memories conjured.

After gorging on large stacks of blueberry pancakes for breakfast, we took our coffee into the living room and opened presents.

Mom and Dad had gotten Aiden socks to use when he played, and after rummaging through his bathroom cabinet, searching for his cologne, I’d given Mom the name, and they’d bought him some more of that too.

I’d balked when I’d seen Armani stamped over the glass bottle, but Mom quickly said thank you and hung up before I could protest further.

I piled my stationery, body lotions, perfume, and paperbacks with Aiden’s presents in my room, returning to find the living room empty.

“He’s been abducted.”

“Shit.” I joined Mom by the window to peek into the backyard.

Dad was gesturing to the half-built gazebo, his eyes bright, while Aiden tilted his head, appearing invested in what he was being shown.

Perhaps he was, though I’d never seen him show a lot of interest in woodwork or any kind of construction. I made a mental note to ask him about it when we had a quiet moment.

“You look happy,” Mom said a while later, peeling carrots and potatoes by the sink for lunch.

“I am,” I admitted, and the buoyance, the ease in which I’d admitted those words reaffirmed it. “He’s incredible.”

“He adores you,” Mom said, eyes on her task.

I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and seated myself at the dining table, my finger drifting over the familiar, time-worn grooves and scratches in the wood. “I love him,” I said quietly, then laughed. “I never thought I’d be able to…” I trailed off.

Mom smiled over at me. “All it takes is the right person, and it can happen again and again and again.”

I nodded, contemplating whether to admit something to her. “Can I ask you something?”

“Of course.”

“Do you think you can fall for two different men, I mean really fall for them, and love them both at the same time?”

Silence lingered for a minute. “So you haven’t stopped.”

Not a question, and my eyes began to burn. It was a betrayal, but one I couldn’t stop. One I was trying to ignore and move past. It had been easy for a while, as long as I didn’t pick at the wound. “No.” I tried to clear the gathering thickness in my throat. “I think it’s unlikely I ever will.”

Mom let that sit there for a minute before responding. “That doesn’t mean you can’t give yourself to someone else. And who knows,” she said, her voice low. “Maybe, with time, it’ll fade. One love becomes louder than the other.”

“Louder than the other,” I repeated. After a few moments of digesting that, I felt the need to reassure her. “I’m okay. I’m not devastated over him anymore. I just… it’s still there, and being home makes its presence known.”

Mom nodded, tossing the scraps after dumping the vegetables onto a tray to go into the oven. “Time, Stevie. All things take time.” She paused, hands on the counter as she locked me in place with one of her assessing looks.

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